For those of you who have been in my life at any point in time over the past 21
years know my Sister from another mother - SAS.
We met at freshman move in day at AU in 93. We were two
first born girls, with relatively young parents (her's even younger than mine),
with much younger siblings. We were 18, SAS had a 14 year old sister JSM and an
8 year old sister Nean.... (I had an 8 year old sister Lolo and 7 year old
brother Unc at the time).
SAS and I became instant friends and we each became
additional sisters/ daughters to the other family. SAS came with me often to
visit in NY and I spent many summers with her at her parents' home on the
Cape.
When we graduated from college SAS and I and W
rented a row house together on Capital Hill, SAS was
in my wedding party and present at the birth of one and a half of our
four children...and is Bob' godmother.
Her younger sister JSM moved here to DC area after she
graduated from college, met her husband and settled here. A few years
ago SAS moved back to New England, but JSM and her husband
stayed here. We got to be not only friends through her sister, but
friends ourselves as adults. JSM lovingly called our home the
"abyss" ....some might think that is because our house is a
mess.... which according to some family members it is...but this
was JSM's way of expressing how people can say they are stopping by
SCentral for a short time - and end up staying much longer than expected.
It makes me smile that she coined that term for us.
In March of 2011 JSM and her husband G had two
beautiful baby boys - twins. It was amazing to watch this young woman
transform to an amazing wife and mother. While she was pregnant with the boys,
she felt a lump. Whatever the reason there were back and forths and suggestion
to come back when she was finished nursing.
August of 2011 - when the boys were less than 5 months old,
at the age of 32 JSM was diagnosed with stage IV metastatic
breast cancer that had spread already to her liver and bones.
When JSM messaged
me to tell me about her diagnosis she said:
"Often when someone is sick so many people want to know
how the "sick" person is doing and how they can help them. . . well
if you are wondering that at anytime. . . now or in the future, please help me
by being support to my family (and Hubby) as you and they feel appropriate. That
is what I want the most."
It has been a long 2.5 years for her family. In June of
2013 JSM, G and the twins moved in with her parents. Nean, her
husband and their son (weeks apart from the twins) and SAS all live
in New England and have created a support system 2nd to none for G, JSM and
the boys.
This week the world lost JSM...but more importantly G
lost his partner in life, K and E, at the age of three, lost their mom, T
and M lost their daughter, SAS and Nean loss their sister...Grandma
and Grandpa S lost their granddaughter...She was such an amazing,
gracious, humble fighter....We are devastated for their loss.
I am trying to figure out how to continue to
honor JSM and her wishes...I have not figured that one out yet.
As for SAS - From our 18 year old selves on 5th floor Hughes, to that infamous
road trip to and from FL in which I would not fight with her, to RA training,
to our summers on the cape trying to dye our brown hair and trips to crazy
NY...to the MANY nights she stayed up to keep me company while I pulled an all
nighter...to my amazing bachelorette party, to being in the room for
1.5 of my births...to practicing being an "Auntie" on my kids so she
could be a perfect one for JSM and Nean's boys...to becoming the "fudge
lady"...to our present day 38 year old selves (at least for a few
weeks/months when we turn 39) she has always been next to me no matter how many
days have passed or miles are in physically between...
SAS is such a support to everyone - and she has been
one to me for the past 21 years -SAS does not like sappy, she is stoic, she is
patient, she is practical, she is loving, she is kind, she is sarcastic
and funny...but after 21 years of sisterhood....I know that SAS is bottling
it up inside, while worrying about others.
I am hoping to be able to do something to support her
so she too may grieve in a way that is appropriate for her... If that
means multiple pitchers of margaritas and making fun of those we
love...and some we love to hate, that is what we will do. After all, I owe it
to SAS and I made a promise to JMS...and intend to honor her and that
promise.
I am so sad to say today we found out that Tree is gone...she had been trying so hard for herself, for her four beautiful children...and she lost her battle. I pray for her beautiful children...and I pray that she is now at peace...and I pray that one day...we'll get together again...
